I see so much despair in your eyes.


She said it.

While we were fucking,

While the fluids were oozing.

My thoughts were boozing on something, 

The time was approaching night.

My coping mechanisms were bright, usually then.

But I am sure I would have put on a smiley face.

Where did I miss? I was cautious enough. 

where did I slip? Sure it did not. 

How did she find out?

She said it.

“I see so much despair in your eyes.” 

Really girl? On that time? Was it necessary?

But surely it did hit me hard more than if she’d said the usual ones whilst doing it. 

The scary part is indeed I was drenching in despair all my veins. 

That’s all. Not heard any more from her. 

Satiated, and I negotiated with the boy who crawls with cigarettes from beneath my bed only at 2 AMs. 

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